Yesterday, we went to the doctor and everything went well. We finally told some more friends and things are starting to seem more real. I've been meaning to track better what is gong on in my pregnancy but I had a fear something would go wrong as soon as I did. Now, I'm feeling better and decided to start writing things down...
How far along? 15.5 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: about 1-2 pounds gained
Maternity clothes? I have been buying a returning jeans like crazy. Think I finally found some good ones though. I can still fit into my stretchy jeans and loose tops. Also got some tops from Gap on sale last week and my mom bought me a super cute Michael Stars top yesterday after the doctor.
Stretch marks? No
Sleep: Sleeping okay. Go to bed early and wake up often to pee
Best moment this week: Going to the doctor and hearing the heartbeat. Telling more friends was also exciting.
Have you told family and friends: We've told a lot of them. Still no facebook announcement or anything.
Miss Anything? Not really. Although there was one time last week when I could have used a glass of wine.
Movement: Nope. I thought I may have felt something the other night but I think it was part of a dream.
Food cravings: Carbs. Its more that I see something (like a chocolate chip muffin in the store) and I must have it. Last night I wanted cheese dip in worst way after driving by my favorite mexican place.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Random smells--- there was something in the trash can this morning and sent me running to the toilet for the first time in weeks.
Have you started to show yet: looking chubby and maybe a little more round.
Gender prediction: I'm pretty sure it's a girl. Everyone except my neighbor Carrie and Eric thinks girl as well.
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy!
Looking forward to: Actually having a noticeable bump instead of looking like I ate too many donuts. Feeling the baby move. Our anniversary tomorrow :)
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
LIfe and Death
Today is an odd day. On one hand, my best friend who was due two weeks after me had her baby this evening. On the other hand my best friend from childhood, who was due a month after my new due date, had a miscarriage today.
The two events bring up a lot a emotion. I still can't believe that my one friend is a mom. It seems like they just started dating and everything happened so quickly. I can't believe my wild woman of a friend, who would call me on Tuesday mornings to tell me where she passed out last night, is a mom. It's so so weird to me. Right now things are probably tougher because my career isn't exactly booming. I'm a little lost on what direction to take and I haven't made any money the last past two months. Eric is getting stressed and money (despite a trip to Europe) is starting to get tight. Its only compounding the stress.
The friend that had the miscarriage brings up more emotion as well, it reminds me of the sleepless nights, the crying, the sadness, the feeling of emptiness.
As I look at my stomach, I'm glad a little pooch is forming. Despite the feelings of confusion I'm happy that soon I'll know that feeling of being a mom.
The two events bring up a lot a emotion. I still can't believe that my one friend is a mom. It seems like they just started dating and everything happened so quickly. I can't believe my wild woman of a friend, who would call me on Tuesday mornings to tell me where she passed out last night, is a mom. It's so so weird to me. Right now things are probably tougher because my career isn't exactly booming. I'm a little lost on what direction to take and I haven't made any money the last past two months. Eric is getting stressed and money (despite a trip to Europe) is starting to get tight. Its only compounding the stress.
The friend that had the miscarriage brings up more emotion as well, it reminds me of the sleepless nights, the crying, the sadness, the feeling of emptiness.
As I look at my stomach, I'm glad a little pooch is forming. Despite the feelings of confusion I'm happy that soon I'll know that feeling of being a mom.
Sunday, October 13, 2013
14 weeks
So, I've made it to the second trimester. We've told family and friends and seen the little bean three times now. The last time we went I was around 11.5 weeks. We saw the baby kicking and moving around. Everything looked great.
But now, the throwing up has stopped and a cold has set in. I don't really know how I am supposed to feel and have had a constant worry that maybe something could be wrong. As much as I want to I still don't trust my body. I've actually lost weight in the past few weeks and I worry my bump isn't big enough. I'm starting to worry about every ache and pain (like a light cramp I having now).
Now that we've told so many people it's become more real, making the worry even more. Although I've told some more people, I freak out about putting it on facebook or letting too many know. We go back to the doctor a week from Tuesday and I am pretty much counting the hours until we get to hear the heartbeat again. I can't wait to have a sizable bump and be able to feel the baby move. I don't want to wish away the pregnancy but I'm ready to feel more and know everyday that things are okay.
But now, the throwing up has stopped and a cold has set in. I don't really know how I am supposed to feel and have had a constant worry that maybe something could be wrong. As much as I want to I still don't trust my body. I've actually lost weight in the past few weeks and I worry my bump isn't big enough. I'm starting to worry about every ache and pain (like a light cramp I having now).
Now that we've told so many people it's become more real, making the worry even more. Although I've told some more people, I freak out about putting it on facebook or letting too many know. We go back to the doctor a week from Tuesday and I am pretty much counting the hours until we get to hear the heartbeat again. I can't wait to have a sizable bump and be able to feel the baby move. I don't want to wish away the pregnancy but I'm ready to feel more and know everyday that things are okay.
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